Confessions of an Addled Mind.

Ahh! it's good to be back in the friendly confines or cyberspace! cyberspace, it's where to go when you don't feel like being... you.

So as some of you may or may not know I recently purchased a new Project. (and when guys say the word "project" we really mean a hoplessly complex hunk of something that most likely will never-ever function as designed unless divine intervention becomes involved)
And I couldn't be more thrilled! Now I will admit that I had the wind taken out of my sails a bit by a so called professional telling me that I would be better off using this particular peice of machinery as a boat anchor, but I think I can prove him wrong! After all, what does a dozen certifcations and years of experience really mean?

On to happier topics.
If anyone happens to read the incredibly moving and fantabulous blog of someone near and dear to my heart (or herat as I like to say) you'll know that I may have an opportunity here at work to make some changes. I will say that I'm looking forward to working more in line with my natural biorythms than what I've done previously in my working career.

on a lighter note (you'll get this in a minute), I've joined a GYM! (see? losing weight, lighter note... Yes I know, I'm so witty I scare myself and numerous woodland creatures) Apparantly my place of employment has an in house gym where for a small nominal fee I can go and make myself all stinky for the enjoyment of my coworkers! They are thrilled at the idea, I must tell you. In all seriousness, I could stand to lose an ounce or two and so I think this may be a good thing for me in the extreme long run. But who knows, maybe I'll get lucky and it will kill me. (joking, just joking... sheesh no one appreciates a good death joke anymore.....)

Have you ever thought about ego? about what makes a persons ego, and how it/they respond to it? I think that ego (specifically the male ego) is nothing more than an extreme case of selective hearing. it's the part of the brain that filters out all the negative and accepts only the positive. think about it.
Here's a good example. A freind of mine accused another freind of mine of being romantically interested in me. Both of us know that the very concept of us together is laughable based on everythign we know about each other. Outside of the obvious issues (marriage, children, and all around general happiness) the two of us have nothing in common. none. not a one. however my ego heard "I think this girl likes you" and got all puffed up. ridiculous isn't it? Rationally and in everyother way possible, any type of relationship other than the friendship we currently have is ludicrus and preposterous, yet the ego takes the inflating part and stops listening to the rest.

if nothing else it made me think of this topic, so it accomplished that. It's always nice to try to understand yourself (and your gender) a bit more. I believe that it's near impossible tol understand others, if you truly don't understand yourself.

not trying to start a philosphical uproar, just my personal belief.

thanks for joining!

until next time.....(if there is a next time after this one)

M